You’re My Fix — Girl in the swing


I’m walking around Bogged down By my thoughts By my heavy heart Something is off I wish I knew what it was So I call you You share your daily nothings I listen and laugh along With the ups of your tone And downs of your day I go along with your flow […]

via You’re My Fix — Girl in the swing

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Flashes from the Past


One of the most significant happenings of my life is the student exchange program for which I had an opportunity to study in a French university.  Although it was in France that my namesake residential address lay, it was Europe as a whole where I spent most of my productive days.

And truth be told, I was fascinated with Europe as a region even before this opportunity knocked my door! So, a visit reaffirmed my fascination and has only increased the longing after my return. Worse off, there are flashes from this past of my life.

I don’t know if I should complain or just sit back and relive the memories. But either way, the longing intensifies so much that I made a vow to go back to all those unvisited (and visited) places just for the heck of cooling my longing.

For once, I have this feeling that this was the best time of my life and others follow the suit 😛 I knew I would be proud about this journey and the phase even before I embarked on it. And the twists it had only elevated the whole phase. Sadly, I am yet to celebrate my trip completion (which includes the hurdles of arranging for visa all by myself).

My mom sarcastically says that how much Europe gave me in experiences, it took away more than that from me- my smile (long story short- an occurrence of high intensity  Bell’s Palsy during the last days of the trip made half side of my face go expressionless and motionless for about 4 months. The recovery is happening slowly but steadily). Reclaiming the smile was the most difficult yet the best part of this process. I hope the dimple is on its way 😛

Coming back to this loss and profit equation, as much as I was frustrated with the recovery process (so much that I was dreaming that I was back to having my normal face), I once never regretted this trip.  Never.

I know that someday my smile (and my dimple too, hopefully) will be like those in olden days. But no one can take away the experience from me. I went through so many things that I am surprised I wasn’t deterred by any shortcoming or embarrassment!  And not to forget, the wonderful people I met there who made my travel and stay easy- a huge, heartfelt thanks to all of them. Never ever did I feel threatened. And thanks to their connectivity, I now know that we have a long way to reach their standards , being totally aware of the challenges in achieving this feat.

So, the flashes from the past don’t bother me anymore for they remind me of my strength and leave me with a smile. But who would understand what I am going through when I tell them vaguely of these flashes? A written record compensates for a passive listener and also helps me introspect.

Till next time! 😊

Longing due to nostalgia


I clearly remember how I disliked my exchange term in France at one point of time so much so that I wrote down an essay about what exactly I felt at that time. But now, looking back, I feel it wasn’t worthy of dislike and that I would love to go back to that place. Probably this is what is wrong with human pyschology- remembering only the good things and comfortably ignoring the bad things.

2017 ka interview :P


1. What did you do in 2017 that you’d never done before?

Well, been to Europe, Mumbai, Bhutan!!! Subtly approached guys 😛 Dated one, broke up immediately 😀 So, quite a roller coaster!

2. Did you keep your new years resolutions, and will you make more for next?

Don’t remember making any resolutions. Let’s leave resolutions to those who follow them 😀

3. What date from 2017 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Nov 18- Diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy; still reeling under its effects

4. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Travelling to 9 countries ( 1 Asian + 8 European) and managing to keep myself sane amidst all the struggles to keep up with the journeys

5. What was your biggest failure?

No personal satisfaction out of internship; could’ve fared far better

6. Did you suffer illness?

Bell’s Palsy 😦

7. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Not that I can think of right away

8. Where did most of your money go?

Travel, food, medical expenses

9. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

My first date 😀

10. What song will always remind you of 2017?

Shape of You, Arjun Reddy album

11. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

Happier 🙂

12. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Work out, eat more healthy, reminding myself of my self-worth

13. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Overthinking

14. Did you fall in love in 2017?

Nope.

15. What/Who was your greatest musical discovery?

Radhan, Anirudh, Haricharan

16. What did you want and get?

An exciting internship phase and December thrills 😉

17. What did you want and not get?

Speedy recovery

18. What was/were your favorite film/s of this year?

 

Arjun Reddy

19. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 24 years old; hung out with friends

20. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

A job in hand and a relationship that could help me grow

21. What kept you sane?

Mom!

22. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2017.

 

Never take your winter clothing off to pose for pictures in cold! Can give you facial paralysis 😛

Kidding. Date only when you are ready for the kind you promised and promise only those which you can keep and not what you think you can keep. Understand the difference.

23. Which new places did you visit in 2017?

Pachmarhi, Mumbai, Alibaug, Thimphu, Paro, Clermont-Ferrand, Paris, Montpellier, Geneva, Lucerne, Zurich, Reykjavik, Keflavik, Dresden, Berlin, Prague, Rotterdam, Amsterdam, Brussels, Bruges, Barcelona, Costa Brava. Damn, the list ended 😐

 

24. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Dil kuch kehta hai, kuch aur hi karta hai 😀

Wishlist


  1. Attend an A. R. Rahman’s concert- as many as possible
  2. Perform a fully orchestrated dance, preferably contemporary
  3. Play a beautiful piece on violin

 

(well, this gets edited for sure)

How ‘routine people’ cope with change?


Ever felt like going back to those points in your life which are not significant yet they provided you with stability and consistency in a routine?

Does that indicate that one is a ‘routine person’ and not the ever ready person who likes and welcomes changes in life rapidly? Well, corporations look for people who are adaptive to changes that may creep in the system and not the one who want to stick to a routine, coming across as a difficult barrier to cross. 

So does that mean that people like me cannot be tolerated? LOL 😅 There’s one single thing that we do which clears us off those inflexibility charges- trying to find a routine in those short term consistencies. Which other choices are we left with, anyway ? 😁

To be this or that?


Have you ever contemplated two opposite careers? I have always wanted to do something so that my work could positively affect as many people as possible, so much so that I considered activism as a career. Or any social work. 

But as I grow older with each day, I realise the importance of being financially independent and thrifty (thanks, mom 😅). It begs my attention to a decently earning job which I considered to be a trap that wouldn’t let me think about the *socially conscious* job. 

I feel the conflict of interest now, unable to decide on one thing. Clarity eludes me, as always 😞

Something that’s not possible in reality


*Inspired by my last night’s dream*

I voice out my opion.
People are flabbergasted.
They cheer me up and sing praises.
I see that it’s a long day.
I look around to find something.
Something that can give me solace.
I see you and a glee on your face.
We hug each other.
The warmth in it, the solace I find
and my instinct that you feel the same
don’t let us part any time soon.
A feeling which you can experience
only in a dream like this.
I wake up from my slumber
only to realize that you are gone
and that I can never feel this
in reality, ever!
Oh! How I wish this
dream never came to an end!
And if only I could buy more time
to savour the moment and feel the bliss…