One of the most significant happenings of my life is the student exchange program for which I had an opportunity to study in a French university. Although it was in France that my namesake residential address lay, it was Europe as a whole where I spent most of my productive days.
And truth be told, I was fascinated with Europe as a region even before this opportunity knocked my door! So, a visit reaffirmed my fascination and has only increased the longing after my return. Worse off, there are flashes from this past of my life.
I don’t know if I should complain or just sit back and relive the memories. But either way, the longing intensifies so much that I made a vow to go back to all those unvisited (and visited) places just for the heck of cooling my longing.
For once, I have this feeling that this was the best time of my life and others follow the suit 😛 I knew I would be proud about this journey and the phase even before I embarked on it. And the twists it had only elevated the whole phase. Sadly, I am yet to celebrate my trip completion (which includes the hurdles of arranging for visa all by myself).
My mom sarcastically says that how much Europe gave me in experiences, it took away more than that from me- my smile (long story short- an occurrence of high intensity Bell’s Palsy during the last days of the trip made half side of my face go expressionless and motionless for about 4 months. The recovery is happening slowly but steadily). Reclaiming the smile was the most difficult yet the best part of this process. I hope the dimple is on its way 😛
Coming back to this loss and profit equation, as much as I was frustrated with the recovery process (so much that I was dreaming that I was back to having my normal face), I once never regretted this trip. Never.
I know that someday my smile (and my dimple too, hopefully) will be like those in olden days. But no one can take away the experience from me. I went through so many things that I am surprised I wasn’t deterred by any shortcoming or embarrassment! And not to forget, the wonderful people I met there who made my travel and stay easy- a huge, heartfelt thanks to all of them. Never ever did I feel threatened. And thanks to their connectivity, I now know that we have a long way to reach their standards , being totally aware of the challenges in achieving this feat.
So, the flashes from the past don’t bother me anymore for they remind me of my strength and leave me with a smile. But who would understand what I am going through when I tell them vaguely of these flashes? A written record compensates for a passive listener and also helps me introspect.
Till next time! 😊